Gone to Knoxville in 60 Seconds

I feel so grown up.

This was always one of my dreams. I wanted a job that allowed me to travel. To adventure. To show the world - hey, this is Angie and I am a force to be reckoned with. I am no one's bitch. I finally get to do that. I will be in Knoxville, Tennessee for approximately four weeks as the support for an HMO claims class.

I am excited and nervous all at once. This is going to be my first foray into something bigger. I thought when I first became a Coordinator this year that it was as big as it was going to get. I like being a Coordinator for the puzzle solving aspect of it. Is it frustrating? You betcha. Do I go home exhausted many a day? Absolutely. Do I shut off some nights wanting nothing to do with people or conversation or thinking? More often than not. In that same breath though, I thank God for not having to deal with escalation calls and getting screamed at. I am not a confrontational person. People that are mad about claims not getting paid can be cruel. I have taken as many as four escalation calls in one day. My adopted brother Andy holds the record with six in one day. That is insane. I have been called names, told I was a liar - even one time being wished I had cancer so that "I knew how it felt." Fuck that. Being angry is one thing. Wishing a terminal illness on another person - that's uncalled for.

I think though that I am ready to do this. I will take ahold of the opportunity with both hands and share what is sure to be the experience of a lifetime. I will share my travels and quirky stories with my friends and family. I will be the adventurer that I have grown to be. I might not be perfect, I may have much to learn in this life, but I am looking forward to the challenge.

At times it may seem that I am destined to walk a solitary path in life. Even the person who is leading the solitary life is never alone. We carry those who are most important to us in our hearts. All we need is a sail to catch the wind and lead us where we are supposed to go. I never said I didn't need anyone. I need, just like anyone else, someone to listen when I need to talk. Someone to watch a movie, tv show, or sporting event with. Someone to remind me when I'm feeling low that I matter in this world. I might act like I don't, but those who really know me and care know better. I also know that I would do anything for those I care about in the same need.

So, thanks for listening as always. My excitement can't be contained tonight, and I really wanted to talk and be heard. Join me for some fun.

Until we meet again,
Angie