Kevin Cronin is a God

As I get closer to a year removed from a bad situation, it’s the little things I am reminded of most that stand out. I was walking today, and this song came on my IPod. Many things were the beginning of the end in my marriage, but this song sticks with me to this day. I bought an REO Speedwagon hits album, and this was one of the songs. It was all there – every negative thing I had in my mind, how I was being treated, and the total disregard for my feelings and opinions. A reminder that if I pretended he was right, I was clearly living with his misconceptions of how love should be. He had all these grandiose ideas of how life could be better, but was unwilling to change, or to listen. Well, Kevin Cronin…you are right. That ain’t love.

You tell me what you think I'm feelin'
You know why I do what I do
Why should you listen to a word I'm sayin'
When it's already so clear to you

You tell me 'bout my bad intentions
You doubt the very things I hold true
I can no longer live with your misconceptions
Baby, all I can say to you

That ain't love, I believe you've got the wrong emotion
That ain't love, at least it doesn't feel like love to me
As long as I say what you wanna hear
Do what you wanna do, be who you want me to be
You think that's love, well baby that ain't love to me

We've got to talk it over sometime
These feelings won't just disappear
I'm just gonna keep telling you what's on my mind
Even if it's not what you wanna hear

Ooh, right now your world and mine are such different places
Through yours I wander lost and confused
And I feel like I'm speaking in a different language
And the only words I haven't used, are

That ain't love, I believe you've got the wrong emotion
That ain't love, at least it doesn't feel like love to me
As long as I say what you wanna hear
Do what you wanna do, be who you want me to be
You think that's love, well baby that ain't love to me

You keep tellin' me, you know a place
Where your life would be better
You're makin' plans long-range
But I don't know how you expect to get there
When you refuse to change, yeah

Ooh baby, that ain't love, I believe you've got the wrong emotion
No baby, that ain't love, at least it doesn't feel like love to me
As long as I say what you wanna hear
Do what you wanna do, be who you want me to be
You think that's love, well baby that ain't love to me

Ooh baby that ain't love, that ain't lo-lo-love
That ain't love, oh no, baby that ain't love, that ain't love

That ain't love
That ain't love
That ain't love

So if these lyrics ring true to you, you deserve better. I know I deserved better. My opinion mattered. Love is accepting the person you are with, and not thinking that they need to be something they clearly are not. I am a unique individual, not a Stepford wife.

Do I like my life now? Hell yes. Figuring it out is all part of the grand scheme. Every day is a new adventure. Where am I going? I am enjoying the journey. I have a few thoughts on this subject of what will happen, but they are thoughts. I know a few things (and people) that are constants, but I want to give everything a chance to grow into the best it can be. I think I’m a grown up. Who’d of thought?

Enjoy your weekend.

Until we meet again, my friends.

Angie