Welcome to February.
I have been shockingly silent as of late, but a wise man
once told me that if I am going to write, I need to do it for the pleasure of
writing. Somehow, the idea of writing for a bit seemed more like a chore than a
joy. I prefer to want to write instead of feeling like I have to. Frankly, it
isn’t something that a lot of people think about. I know a few folks who read
my blog regularly, but if it isn’t there, the world is not going to stop
turning.
That said, today I woke up with a smile on my face, and full
of happiness. That happiness is going to spill out somewhere, and I wanted it
to be in my writing. So much of my life has been out of my control. I lived so
long in the shadows that I wasn’t sure I was ever going to come out of it.
Guess what? I am a shiny penny, and I am bursting with light. Things that used
to upset me no longer do. I could be upset for making mistakes – the old me
would have been in a pit of despair and self-loathing because I made an error
that I probably cannot argue my way out of. Not anymore. Own it, evaluate why
and what caused the error, learn, and move on.
I used to be frightened of new things and new people. Social
situations made me uncomfortable. It’s a fantastic feeling to overcome those
fears. Once I accepted the reasons for those fears – that I was not happy with
myself – life got a lot better. Reinventing myself was the best thing that
could have happened. I grew. I became confident. Having positive thoughts makes
you feel good about yourself, and the better I feel, the more I can see it
manifest itself in my physical appearance. I had a period in my life that I ate
to compensate for the bad feelings. Food didn’t change this. The bad feelings were
still there, and I felt even worse as I gained weight on top of everything else.
Be the person that makes you happy. You do not have to
explain the reasoning for your choices. You need to please yourself first.
Surround yourself with people who care about you, not what you can do for them,
or that want to control you. Best advice? That thing that you think you can’t
do? Give it a whirl. You might fail, but what if you succeed? The rush is
incredible. Take a chance. Let someone see you for who you really are. If they
are meant to be there, they will embrace all of you – quirks and all. Some of
those quirks may be theirs. They may actually like things that you do. It doesn’t
mean that you like the same of everything. It just means that your kind of
crazy is also theirs.
Don’t overthink. Do. Love yourself. Chances are - someone
else is going to love you too. Take care, my friends.
Until we meet again,
Angie
